Lyrics:

It ain't no point to me waking up,
everybody's time I'm taking up,
I got nobody, it ain't a shoulder near,
I can't stay here and it's colder there,
I don't wanna look back cause it's gonna hurt,
I slice my wrist and it's gonna squirt,
For me everybody holds a hate,
I got backstabbed and everybody holds the stake,
it's no roads to take I'm in a circle drive,
bustin' at myself and I'm tryna survive,
I'll disappoint you, and I will let you down,
and I ain't got many home boys comin' round,
you don't understand so don't say you do,
I swear I'll put a mother fuckin' slug in you,
I'm the only one, the lonely one,
and at home loading a gun thinking why not?

I got court comin' up, I stole a truck,
I got a bitch pregnant and I'm broke as fuck,
I wanna get high but i got piss test,
I'm always first name on top of the shit list,
get this, the witch has made my chest,
it's permanent nightly visiting nest,
it ain't no clothes I look good in,
I'm the mother fuckin' big red train that couldn't,
I got no family I stole they shit,
restraining orders and I still won't quit,
I hit rock bottom, and I fell in a hole,
and I fell through the floor of that hole some more,
I been missin for a year, nobody's lookin',
I got beat down and my shit tookin',
I look ahead and all I see is more of the same
or this self inflicted bullet hole pouring my brain!

I dream about cuttin' heads off with a shovel,
the dreams are gettin' serious think I'm in trouble,
I don't hold memory for more than an hour,
I'm tire as fuck and I'm drained of power,
I ain't half way there and I'm outta time,
I'm like a crushed light bulb, all outta shine,
I been around the world but no place is home,
I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome,
I'm butt-naked, I been jackin' off gettin' drunk,
it's my last hours alive who gives a fuck?
It don't matter. I'm doing the shit in the garage,
tryna make it easier for them to clean my head splaage,
this bitch I loved, I hope she finds me,
still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me,

I'm about to do it,

Can you hold for a second...

Hello?
Hey whats up?
Where you at?
Right down the street
Wit who?
My girl,Shannon.We were wonderin if we could stop by?
Well shit, yea, come on by
Really?
Yea.Hey,hey hey hey...
I know bring some blunts,alright
uh huh alright bye