Let's get fucked up and die I'm speaking figuratively, of course Like the last time that I committed suicide Social suicide
Yeah so I'm already dead on the inside But I can still pretend With my memories and photographs I've learned to love the lie
I wanna know what it's like to be Awkward and innocent, not belligerent I wanna know how it feels to be Useful and pertinent and have common sense, yeah
Let me in, let me in to the club 'Cause I wanna belong and I need to get strong And if memory serves I'm addicted to words and they're useless
In this department
Let's get fucked up and die I'm riding hard on the last lines of every lie And the BMX bike of my life is about to explode I'm about to explode
I'm a mess, I'm a wreck I am perfect and I have learned to accept All my problems and short comings 'Cause I am so visceral yet deeply inept
I want to thank you for being a part Of my forget me nots and Marigolds And all the things that don't get old Is it legal to do this? I surely don't know
It's the only way I have learned to express myself Through other peoples descriptions of life I'm afraid I'm alone and entirely useless
In this department
Let's get fucked up and die For the last time with feeling we'll try not to smile As we cover our heads and drink heavily into the night That's no shock and surprise
I believe that I can Overcome this and beat everything in the end But I choose to abuse for the time being Maybe I'll win but for now I've decided to die
Sister Soldier you've been Such a positive influence on my mental frame If I could ever repay you I would but I'm hard up for cash And my memory lacks initiative
Goddamn the liquor store's closed We're so close to scoring It hurts, it destroys, 'til it kills I am tired and hungry and totally useless