Lyrics:

I used to want to take abr /Drill to my headbr /Let the pain out of the holebr /I used to want to cut thebr /Veins in my neckbr /Cool the blood boiling mybr /Soulbr /When I wondered, why mybr /Daily headaches thunderedbr /Tried to buffer, pushingbr /Down the pain I sufferedbr /Mutilated, feeling sobr /Humiliatedbr /Cannot wash the dirt offbr /Underneath my skinbr /br /There was a part of me leftbr /Far behindbr /When at the age of fivebr /Years oldbr /I had my innocence takenbr /From mebr /Emptiness would fill thebr /Holebr /Now a second grader,br /Thinking why I don't feelbr /Betterbr /Why I'm filthy, why the hellbr /I feel so guiltybr /When drawing stick menbr /Of pornographic men andbr /Womenbr /Thinking all the timebr /There's something wrongbr /With mebr /br /Everyday for three yearsbr /From dawn 'til dusk abr /Migrainebr /Would take me and break mebr /And it'd cripple me sobr /Much thatbr /In dreams, it'd seem, withbr /A hole in my templebr /That I could probably makebr /My headaches finally gobr /Awaybr /br /Trephinationbr /Trephinationbr /The enemy inside of mebr /Won't let me freebr /Wants me to bleedbr /br /And after three years nowbr /My headaches wear offbr /For reasons not quite tobr /Me knownbr /The acupuncture needlesbr /Sticking my skinbr /Pushed them down as farbr /As they'd gobr /But now I'm older and nowbr /Inside my anger smoldersbr /From depression, to fightingbr /Taking out my vengeancebr /Consequences, now i'dbr /Question during sex if ...br /Is this how it fucking feelsbr /Or am I faking it ? br /br /No longer the child thatbr /You left there at the bartbr /Tracksbr /I'm now at 17, left in anbr /Empty blacknessbr /On drugs, with thugs, andbr /Thinking 'goddamn ? 'br /I'm ending up in a failure,br /In the gutter passed outbr /br /Trephinationbr /Trephinationbr /This enemy inside of mebr /Won't let me freebr /Wants me to bleedbr /br /Now I'm older and in thisbr /Man an anger smoldersbr /Now I'm thinking a hole inbr /You is what I'm seeingbr /Your depression, is thebr /Dent I kick in you inbr /Vengeancebr /Consequences are the painbr /I'd give to youbr /br /I know that I'm dreaming,br /But in this dream I go inbr /Go through it, and end itbr /And though I'd never do itbr /I'm killing you, hand onbr /The trigger - pull itbr /Your final thought'll be abr /Bullet in your fuckin' headbr /br /Trephinationbr /Trephinationbr /This enemy inside of mebr /I'm now killingbr /To make me free.