Lyrics:

I gambled big for the smallest part, I know it's not
Enough to change what's been going, but it's all I got
Misjudge and switch up from target to target
Miscalculate what it is that I want
Spread my wings, writer's block
Dead by things made up
And if I'm honest
I think I'm beginnin' to question how much I want this
Overloaded, serial stressor, I'm sitting nauseous
Panic on a loop in my head, I'm chronically cautious
To keep it simple, I think I've been willingly followin' every impulse
Picturin' a future, then tossing it out the window
Suffocate the fire I started right when it kindles

The source of my serotonin is only digital
My reality's fading, I guess it's typical
Switch back, it's mismatched dopamine
Whiplash, hits fast, controllin' me
I sit in silence, all beat up
Death by a thousand cuts
So if I'm honest
I think I'm beginnin' to question how much I want this
Overloaded, serial stressor, I'm sitting nauseous
Panic on a loop in my head, I'm chronically cautious
To keep it simple, I think I've been willingly followin' every impulse
Picturin' a future, then tossing it out the window
Suffocate the fire I started right when it kindles
If I'm honest
Oh, if I'm honest (oh, if I'm honest)