Life ain't really what it fucking seems like I use to push through but now it feels like Theres nothing I can do Trapped inside my mind yeah I'm stuck up in the loop
I forget who I am To tell you the truth I don't feel like a man I feel like a monster thats stuck in his head I see no escape and I'm stuck where I am Damn This is where all of it ends I'm airing it out and I'm getting on meds Cuz I needed help But the people I tell Will tell me be happy it's all in my head Do you know what it's like Know what it's like To wake up and panic you're scared for your life So you reach for the meds but the meds isn't there Cuz we took them away when you said you was aight Now I'm trapped in a fight Looking for something I know I can't find The map to be happy is so fucking close I discovered the mountain but now I can't climb And that is discouraging But when I get pressure I'm flourishing So maybe I'll take all the pain thats fighting my brain then bottle and bury it Or maybe embrace and encourage it Wait maybe I'll baby and nourish it Wait maybe I'll make you a track about how I'm depressed and I bet you'll encourage it Why do you people think different than me I need the cure my evil is pure don't listen to me Sit in my room, stare at the roof thats just something I do Will tomorrow be different cuz lately I feel like I'm stuck in the loop
Life ain't really what it fucking seems like I use to push through but now it feels like Theres nothing I can do Trapped inside my mind yeah I'm stuck up in the loop
I forget who I am To tell you the truth I don't feel like a man I feel like a dude who's abusing his meds To run from the issues he thinks that he has Damn This is where all of it ends I'm standing my ground I ain't falling again Cuz I need some help I'm fighting myself They tell me I'm crazy it's all in my head What the fuck do you know about waking up sad Making excuses for shit that you say You're stuck in a loop and you're scared to admit it So nobody knows that you're living in pain Man its driving you crazy Thinking bout what all these people would say They'd say that you're living a dream and ain't really sad cuz you got a smile on your face But they don't know bout all the trauma No they dont know bout all your problems And they dont know bout all the demons you dealing with Dying when you was a toddler Never had childhood only had fear Talked to the reaper when you was a mere 4 years old, know what that did It gave you depression when you was a kid You try to be honest, telling the doctor bout what's on your mind He said that its puberty give it a year and I bet you'll be fine You're 20 years old, you're feeling the same you got nothing to lose Cuz life isn't bringing you joy, its bringing you pain and you're stuck in the loop
Life ain't really what it fucking seems like I use to push through but now it feels like Theres nothing I can do Trapped inside my mind yeah I'm stuck up in the loop
I forget who I am To tell you the truth I don't feel like a man I feel like a loser thats losing his friends I push them away when I'm losing my head Damn This is where all of it ends Im speaking my mind and I'm plotting revenge Cuz I needed help And people could tell But they went and left me to suffer again But I know what it's like when you see it Your homies are battling through And you aren't a therapist so you pretend you don't notice But they know you do And now it's too awkward to even be with them So you just leave them right out of the blue Now they all thinking that they was the reason but deep in your mind You know it was you So now you feel guilty for shit that you said But you got that pride that you're bottling in And you won't admit that you're killing your homie You look to the side and forget it again But every message he sends, a beep to your phone But you never read it you leave it alone Making him feel like he's living in hell so he's burning himself just to feel he's at home These are the times where I like to reflect what I think of myself I act like a victim in most situations I think I need help Why are you hiding your feelings from them you got nothing to prove So fuck all of that, just think of a way to get out of this loop