Lyrics:

Choking on painkillers stuck in my throat
13 years old writing suicide notes
Hiding razor blade scars under my coat
Got on the internet how to tie rope to a noose
Domestic abuse is well writen
You hear motherfucker and die bitch from out of your your kitchen
When you intervened your own neck getting twisted
To the sound of broken dishes flying all around you bitches
I don't understand,
Why would you even have children?
When you live in warzone and frontline is our building
Growing up here, I've seen more than I like to witness
Seen families throwing up fists it's just everyday business
'Get out' my momma tells him, she don't noticed me it's too much distance
I fade back, see you in hell then
It wouldn't happen if you only just listened

I be alive today, only if you heard what I have to say
Give me a time or day, I probably be alive but I passed away
For you, to look at me
For you, to just look at me

Things really haven't been the same as they used to be
And she don't think what this shit really does to me
This motherfucker only thought about his own image
When she took em, everything fall apart now they're gone
I tried to tell her what was going on, but she don't wanna listen
Providing for the family was always been mission
She ain't the type to stand by, and show any support
Got a letter from the lawyer saying I need to be indoor, for what?
Or what?
'You'll always fucking screaming at the kids, treating em like shit
And I can't even begin, to even think that I won't never see em again
When you lose all you think about is getting revenge'
She wanna stab me in the back, I'm gonna catch her alone
I'm fiend to put this bullet in my motherfucking dome
Tried to help her out, she couldn't stop bitching
Couldn't been happy if you wouldn't just listen?

I be alive today, only if you heard what I have to say
Give me a time or day, I probably be alive but I passed away
For you, to look at me
For you, to just look at me

Big Hoodoo I specialize in dead speaking
The jinx told me to quick leave a haters dead licking
Life's fucked up I feel like I'mma die tonight
Smoking on some fireworks, while I'm sniffing dynamite
Cannibal, animal who learned from Hannibal Lecter
This man love cantaloupe, get rid of bodies like I'm Dexter
Come from a different texture, I'm a murder expert
My eyes go black, I pull your ribs out your fucking sweatshirt
Never had, so I'm thinking death must be nice
And I'm homicidal, so I'm also thinking 'fuck your life'
Moms told me she gave birth to an evil genius
Cause she gets pregnant doing drugs, bumping kill The Fetus
My voodoo got em singing 'yeah motherfuckers'
It's Hoodoo swinging with the Garcia Brothers
Fucked up now we're in our graves reminiscence
Of how our life's will be, if the world would only listen

I be alive today, only if you heard what I have to say
Give me a time or day, I probably be alive but I passed away
For you, to look at me
For you, to just look at me