I moved myself west to find a philosophy To learn my geography at best Where the mountains are cold The rain drops it's tears, i'm told Amongst the ashes a heart of gold, they say I guess it's best to imagine it that way
So i bought me a book to teach me the ways of god To open my tarnished heart from it Started praisin' the lord & talkin' in tongues & code; I did repairs on that broken road back home I guess it's better than being alone
And now to death: i'm dying To love: i'm trying To god: i'm lying again And to my ma: i've failed you To my pa: i (always) blamed you And to god: i have shamed you again
So i moved myself out, i pictured a better home- A lawn full of marigolds, i guess I headed back east, started thinking my hope away Depression was the one to stay since then Now, i take pills to push it from my head Yes, i take pills to push it from my head
And now to death: i'm dying To love: i'm trying To god: i'm lying again And to my ma: i've failed you To my pa: i (always) blamed you And to god: i have shamed you again To god: i have shamed you again To god: i have shamed you again Again