Lyrics:

[Intro]
Dear diary
This battle’s on the verge of emergency
Call in a chemical warfare attack

[Verse 1]
Tempting fate with the crisis that my vices will orchestrate
Cold sweats as my bold pupils dilate
I could die from the weight of it all
Or make it through another close call

[Chorus]
Here’s a note to myself, “Back to the wall
The higher you get, girl, the further you fall”
Here’s a note to myself, “Alone in my pain
How close can you come to the edge before you walk away?”

[Verse 2]
Through blackened veins the evil in the needle bleeds into my brain
And sells me on the sense of a fool’s escape
I could die from the weight of it all
Or make it through another close call

[Chorus]
Here’s a note to myself, “Back to the wall
The higher you get, girl, the further you fall”
Here’s a note to myself, “Alone in my pain
How close can you come to the edge before you walk away?”
Before you walk away

[Bridge]
But I just need one more taste, one more taste
Scars earned from searching for solutions
So desperate just to feel
Sold on self-prescribed pollution, just distorting what was real
And so it goes in the throes of what I can’t overcome
Painfully numb
Dear diary
This battle’s on the verge of emergency

[Chorus]
Here’s a note to myself, “Back to the wall
The higher you get, girl, the further you fall”
Here’s a note to myself, “Alone in my pain
How close can you come to the edge before you walk away?”

[Outro]
Before you walk away
Before you walk away