The two storey house where we started again With the flakey white paint on the garage door Trying to skate in the driveway On a hand me down skateboard I left my skin on the asphalt The closest to pain that I'd felt Too young to know what lonely was Just you and three kids In an empty fucking house I never noticed, I never saw the pain When fourteen years meant shit that day It never mattered so much to me It never changed a thing
The tests came in, you were sick But its not like I didn't care I just couldn't hear it A wheelchair could never take my mum If I just ignored it You said we'd never have it differently From the kids that were given everything So instead I'd throw it in your face The thought of letting someone in
Mum, now that I’ve been in love myself I can’t imagine how it felt To be told that you could never love another man Not like you had it easy Not like you came out even It’s not like I could ask for any more Than you’d already given And it makes me sick The bad luck had nothing to do with it Just the heartless human beings That you called your family
Apologise You’ll never get those years back But you smiled through all of it Apologise You’ll never get those years back But you smiled through all of it Now that I've been in love myself I can't imagine how it felt To be told that you could Never love another man
And I know Even after everything I’ve done All I ever had to do was call But I’ve lost sleep over the Thought of forgiveness