Lyrics:

a master actor,
a perfect liar

all smiles played out
with expert timing

it starts like rust,
slow and silent,
but grows like fire,
swift and violent

I walk much slower now
I've got no direction
all bends are blind,
all cracks chasms
I love and hate in equal measures
the freedom from precision
that acting like this offers
but habits are so easily formed
and not so easily forgotten
it's nothing that some wine can't sort out
hit the offy,
back a bottle,
drop two sleeping pills and hope to pass out
the run as got me spinning around and down and out

I hate the person I've become
hate the foil,
hate the filters,
hate the blister packs but
I won't stop
the run as got me spinning around and down and out
praying that the clarity of morning brings a peace
to ease the mourning of
a loss of control,
as two lives split in half from a whole
she'd say 'I missed you when you were gone',
and I would wish that I was off anywhere else
I'm sorry
when I said I didn't love you
what I meant was I hate myself