[Verse 1] I'm, quiet to think of the past Lemme reflect, all my regrets to accept Every second I'm sitting in silence I swear that I'm singing a song of seclusion I felt like that was relief a word of release I painted a picture of peace I pray that when I am deceased My pain will have ceased So I can feel finally free Anything that I would ever put up on the page Is a problem that's all taken for granted And if I do whatever that I really wanted I would give you something real But you never understand me And imma be the greatest motherfucker That no-one has ever known With a real dark tone And his home is a canvas But he can't stand it Livin' with his fears got a young nigga manic Damn, I should be in a much better predicament Crying for help but nobody would listen And I need forgiveness of sins I'm insisting The way to survive I can see my descent I'm suppressing emotions I feel like its hopeless Every thing is a joke it's a lie I refuse to believe on the things that I see on the surface It seems like its solving your problem When you at the bottom You don't have an option When there is no one left to call And I'm finding it hard to create an identity Fairly sedated and mentally scarred It's a mark I will carry around as a constant reminder I wanted reciprocity I never found it I'm living alone and severely depressed I'm deciding to end a terrible existence Lawd, eh
[Pre-Verse] Yes Lawd (Sigh) eh
[Verse 2] Wakin' up and paranoid, terrified scream Been a mighty long time since I had a nice dream Every thought in my brain is so evil I cannot deal with these ignorant people Try to deceive me by tellin' your lie What I feel is the flow and the word you presented Get it by yourself as the way a nigga got to Never let a motherfucker impede and stop you Can't be somebody that just sits and watch Must not seem weak there's no time to think I give you all that I am as a person I pray you receive it as something that's positive If I effected your life in the least I would like you to think that I am realistic And not pessimistic irrelevant sinner Provided the image of purer intention By giving you love in the similar sentence Departed the flesh and my spirit has left Lawd, FUCK