Lyrics:

It's in my body
It's in my soul
I try to hold me
Under control

I am not dreaming
I cannot hide
I'm feeling nervous
And strange inside

Acts of self-destruction
Violent acts of hate

I'm diving into
A sea of mud
(And) drugs to calm me
In my blood

There is no way back
I just don't care
So many things I
(I) can't repair