here I stand empty heart empty hands when all is silent I lay defenseless in my solitude scattered dreams wasted dreams this will denied I have come to this land filled with hope to understand when all is used up will I wash away or cling to this in desperation I don't know I can't see I don't care what will be I can't read what's happening It's hard to breathe I can't feel now stiff and still I await apprehensive at the gate should I lie here spent and exhausted and hold to hope in desperation