Lyrics:

When I finally die they gon act like they surprised
Like I ain’t been up on?the?mic just cryin’?for my life
I think about it?all the time wishin’ I could die
They say that I should talk about what’s goin’ on inside
I talk about it almost everyday but they just laugh and say I’m fine
I wish that I could get away and escape from my mind
I get to the drugs
When I hit my fuckin’ plug
Got the razor in the back and my wrist drips the blood
Yeah my wrist drips blood
I was dyin’ in the back ain’t nobody give a fuck
All my homies got my back but they don’t care if I cut
You ain’t my girl you a motherfuckin’ slut
Said you ain’t my girl you a motherfuckin’ slut
The devil on my shoulder tellin’ me to call it quits
He starred me in the eye told me, “take the fuckin’ hints”
“You’re sick, you dyin’, you have no fuckin’ friends”
“No matter how hard you dream you won’t get the fuckin’ Benz”
I’m sick, I’m dyin’, I have no fuckin’ friends
No matter how hard I dream I won’t get the fuckin’ Benz
I was in my room smokin’ on the Thrax
Drownin’ in my sorrow wishin’ that I had her back
I’ll tie up a noose and tell my fuckin’ friends, “If I try to hang it’s gon be the fuckin’ end”
I’ll tell my mamma that I love her but I just can’t change
‘Cause lately I been cryin’ and feelin’ pretty strange
I’m sick in the head, swear to god that I’m deranged
Wish I could reset, have my brain get rearranged

When I finally die ain’t nobody gonna cry
I’ll take drugs till I’m feelin’ satisfied
Scream into my pillow while I think about my life
Call up all my homies and my mamma to say my finale goodbyes
Then I’ll die
I’ll drift into the darkness while I sip my fuckin’ wine
I’ll tell heaven don’t wait ‘cause I know that I won’t go
I’ll fall into the pit while Satan takes my broken soul